Message for mom 7

Message for mom 7

Mommy.

i was a strong boy with a touch of your hands.

now i became a tough grown man with a preciouss heart, but i still wanted to be that boy that felt a perfect love.

so touch me again and always, Mom.

5 Februari 2012
oleh: Agung Pramono

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Message for mom 6

Message for mom 6

Mom, banyak banget berkah, hidayah, rahmat, hikmah, dan ibrah, inayah juga.

Kok bisa tumplek bleg ya, Mom?

Banyak diri dengan rasa yang ndekat, tapi alhamdulillah nggak jelek kok, lagipula there’s a free man in me jadi aku sebodo teing kalo ada yang jelek, bought and sold hahaha… tapi insyaALLAH nggak lah, Mom.

Since our days of loosing you, yeah we missed but malah jadi deket dan bisa saling dukung juga rawat.

Tapi bukan berarti waktu ada Mom kita nggak begini, lho.

Justeru we found and try to build your relic in a frame.

Don’t be sad Mom… she’s okay with me.

umm, Mom please tell me about the angels, and which one i can talk with? introduce me please, let them promote theirself hihihi.. you know me better.

Kiss miss

oleh: Agung Pramono

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Message for Mom 5

Message for Mom 5

i just wanted to see you, Mom!

it is cold and sometimes too much heat down here.

but the time i near you, there only warm.. everywhere.

each time i learned how to give warmth to others.

Mom, i'm cold… very cold while others feel warm and save.

but i shouldn't light the matches in my coldness.

ooh, maybe i must search your relic for warmth, show me Mom.. i'll find it myself.. kiss.

forgive me that had disturbed your rest.

sleep well now, Mo…om.

don't bother me, just sleep tight…

sorry for i haven't been strong enough, kiss (muaach... i'll grow as you want me to be: our secret)

30 Agustus jam 16:42
oleh: Agung Pramono

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Message for Mom 4

Message for Mom 4

bila aku hidup untuk kedua kalinya, aku harap lahir dari rahim yang sama.

tapi kuasa ALLAH akan nutup buku pengetahuan itu.

terlepas dari itu, gue bersyukur bahwa hidup gue yang sekarang ini lahir dari rahim yang gue mau.

06 Agustus jam 12:59
oleh: Agung Pramono

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For the Dedicated Man

For the Dedicated Man

cuma bisa dengar suara dari jauh yang mbawa sengal kelaparan.

pak tua!

andainya dekat, maka nikmatilah hidangan buka puasaku,

andainya ku mampu, kusampaikan harta-benda yang mungkin bercampur khilaf dan syubhat,

tak apa, pak tua!

tanpa hidangan tak membuatku lantas mati,

dan engkaupun tak menuntut nyawaku.

tapi, tanpa ada dirimu, apa mungkin ada masa kiniku?

namun aku jauh!

hanya bisa menghayati laparmu sambil memandangi hidangan ini, hingga kudengar nanti tawamu yang jauh.

lisanku bergema hingga ke hati, lirih namun tak henti : "insyaALLAH"

ketika ALLAH menyambung tali, celakalah bila kulepas ikatannya.

‎2 (dua) hari yang lalu ada tawa si matahari,

kemarin ada marah sang langit,

hari ini, kudengar tangismu tertahan kelaparan.

ya ALLAH, biarkanlah airmatanya jatuh basahi bumi agar tumbuhlah benih surga, bekal kami untuk menuju manusia.

semalam sempat tidur sebentar dan mimpi (sebelumnya, gue adalah orang yang gak punya dan gak suka mimpi) tapi mimpinya bukan buat gue.

itu buat pak Tua yang pernah gue ceritain di salah satu state, dia yang pernah jaya dan sekarang njalani puasa, nasi bungkus atau mi instan yang gak mateng karena dimasak oleh badan tua ...yang gemetar, bekal sepiring yang dibagi 2 waktu: saur dan buka (ALLAHU AKBAR)".

…pak Tua, semalam Nyonya Besar senyum ke gue dan bilang: "ALLAH mencintainya karena itulah cinta yang sempat kubisikkan kepadanya adalah benar dan lurus, tidak pernah menyimpang dan tak akan kutarik ucapan itu, sampaikanlah sayang".

pak Tua, compang-camping pakaianmu sudah, kurus dan legam dengan cahaya firdaus tumbuh dikepalamu gantikan rambut, tandamu ikhlas, gejalamu tabah.

pak Tua, "akulah saksimu dihadapan ALLAH, Tuhannya semua mahluk".

…pak Tua, andainya bisa gue rekat ruang dan waktu yang beda ini, insyaALLAH gue bopong tubuhmu gak peduli lengket dan berbau.

tapi gue cuma manusia biasa yang cuma punya keinginan untuk menunjukkan surga yang ALLAH janjikan, tapi belumlah ...untuk tinggal.

tapi aku punya airmata, dan didalam butirannya dapat kau lihat pantulan Arsy.

sentuhlah airmata gue, rasakan kesejukan surga itu.. pak Tua.

Subhanallah walhamdulillah wa laa ilaha ilallah walallahu akbar wa laa haula wala quwatta ila billah.

12 Agustus jam 18:57 disambung 27 Agustus jam 18:04
oleh: Agung Pramono

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She Has Your Eyes (message for mom 3)

She has Your eyes

Mom, a view days ago on June 11th 2010 Dad visited bebi ninok, dia kelihatan seneng banget, mau mbuatin kopi, teh dan minuman lain sebanyaknya. Dan yang khusus adalah dia siapkan sebotol kecil Susu dari produk kesukaannya sambil asking ”when does my gradfather arrive, I don’t want to sleep before I met him... I want to give him a bottle of my milk ”, what a cute, pretty and generous baby she is.

And at the time when she met her grand Pa, you know what kids do – she just staring deep and freeze, holding and hugging tight to her mommy’s hahaha...

Mom, as long as I know that bebi ninok gurung pernah ketemu with you, am I right?

But it's kind of weird when I show her your pictures then bebi ninok langsung bilang, ”iki eyang uti Jakarta”. How did she know you mom?

Tapi eku seneng wae, soale paling you have met her somewhere and sometime, or even many times – I don’t know for sure.

Yes, she smile... a wide smile on her face everytime she looked at your photograph, and she even doing funny things like dancing, talking, and touching beatiful face in that pict.

Yeah, the beautiness of you were caught by those line yang menghias wajahmu.

Bebi ninok selalu ngingetin aku pada parasmu, mom... clearly, and I saw your lines while she was sleep – mom, I thank you for being the strong that showed in my daughter.

You know mom, my wife always proud and respect for you and wanted to be as beauty as you, but I always said to her, ”no, don’t be – you are another beauty that I have. One of the beautiness that fullfilled hidupku dan kebanggaanku karena bisa memilikimu”.

You know mom, maybe I’ll never have bebi ninok if I never met my wife, dan itu berarti aku nggak bisa nemukanmu lagi... nemukan kecantikan surgawi yang nyentuh wajah dunia.

And destiny never be wrong, because she gave me bebi ninok, and that means I have you back, ALLAH bring you back in my life on this earth.

Stay with bebi ninok, mom. She loves you and now she’s learning to write, she begins with your name on the white paper... she write her life.

Mom, ada satu hal yang nggak pernah bisa aku lupa yaitu setiap saat kita ngobrol. Terus terang setiap obrolan itu terjadi aku nggak pernah berani untuk langsung natap matamu, mom.
Takut bercampur hormat – pandanganmu itu dalem banget, seperti melihat sampai ke dalam hati dan pikiran orang.

But sometimes aku sempatkan mencuri pandang ke arah wajahmu, tapi samasekali bukan karena you want me todo so agar aku menatapmu saat berbicara dan menghadapi sebagai laki-laki... tapi aku aku bangga mempunyai mom secantik dirimu dengan darah bangsawan kita.

Oh ya, mom – bebi ninok has your eyes, so I can see you through her eyes eachtime I was captured by the sense of missing you, then love comes rapidly never ends, and that’s the preciouss price of my life that ALLAH has geiven to me... to us, to our family.

But that don’t mean I love my baby, my wife and our family for the reason of my love for you... I love beautiness and they filled my life, became a part of me.

Mom, we still and always have you.

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Wal Ashr' (message for mom 2)

Wal Ashr' (message for mom 2)

I missed you mom, but I can’t go home yet soalnya amanah langit belum selesai.

Kemarin bebi ninok sama Bundanya nelpon Agung, sakit katanya mungkin kangen.

Agung ndak bisa datang ke mimpi mereka, so, can you visit them into their dreams? Titip nakhlan dari taman eden dan air telaga kautsar, mom.

Bebi ninok bilang kalo Ayah pulang nanti dan bawa banyak oleh-oleh mau dibagikan ke om, tante dan eyangnya.

Oh mom, she’s a cute little angel, you haven’t met her, don’t you?

Or even you can visit my dreams so I can bring your warmth when I go to my Hephzibah.

Sent you a kiss from below.

Kamis, 18 Februari 2010 jam 17:09
oleh: Agung Pramono

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Message for Mom 1

Message for Mom 1

my mom (the late) used to woke me up in the morning, asked me wether i have my dawn prayer. but i woke late - soon as the sun shine at 9 or 11, but in friday i woke earlier.

before that, untill now i still can feel her tender lips kissed my cheek, her soft hand caress my hair, the gentle voice and the gestures that won't arouse me. she knew i was too tired for being helpfull, took the blanket and cover me with it. sat beside me on my bed and i knew that she always staring at me for awhile before got back to her routinity as a housewife... and being a mother.

her steps towards the eden.

i keep her words in my heart and open it for every soul, she whispered: "son, you must begin to wake early".

now, i send her my respon: "mom, i always woke early in the morning... but i always wanted to feel you so i laid again and close my eyes".

"mom, i caught the morning breeze under my wings, i'm trying to save it for the future. oh mom, you know mans heart - they dry. their mind is thirsty, and all i can do now is share those morning breeze to make them feel save and peacefull".

"mom, the breeze, your love and the faith of ALLAH will not be decreased. i promise you - so... keep your smile up there that i see in the sun shine, and my days now filled with preciouss soul".

"oh mom, at the last moment we met, you told me about the beautiness of my wife.. you're right, mom. she's the one that ALLAH has mentioned as a human... a woman not like many creatures with the same form - what a heaven creation, she's willing to touch the earth".

"and the last thing mom - that i haven't told you as a secret. i knew her since i was a kid, i pray and talk to ALLAH about her everything - HE let me read my book of destiny... MOM, ARE YOU AN ANGEL?"

03 Januari 2010 jam 15:03
oleh: Agung Pramono

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